2014 is the year of the horse in the Chinese zodiac calendar. The horse symbolizes kindness, strength and gregariousness. In the large Chinese astrological calendar, this year is also associated with wood making this the year of the wooden horse. This represents 12 months of patience and cooperation. I need some of that :)
Lunar New Year is a very important holiday in the Chinese culture. It is a time to honor ones ancestors and to spend time with family and loved ones. More than any other holiday, I think of Sofie's China Mom, her birth Mom, during this wonderful time of celebration. I hope the holiday is not to hard for her wondering where and how her daughter is. I hope that somewhere in her heart she feels that Sofie, Lu Jing Jing and the first name that her birth mom ever whispered in her ear, is doing well and is loved and cared for. I hope she feels in her heart how much we love her precious daughter and how much she has added to our family. "Wishing her to be prosperous in the new year."
Sofie has been asking lots of questions about her adoption lately. She knows that she lived in China before Mommy, Daddy and Ainsley came to get her. She somehow managed to find adoption gotcha day videos on You Tube and was watching them the other day. Wow did that ever fuel a ton of questions which I tried to answer as best I could. A few weeks ago out of the blue she asked me "where Mommy Daddy when I baby?" When you have a child who, for almost and year and a half, could not verbalize a question so that the listener can understand suddenly starts asking about her adoption, it kinda floors you. You become somewhat complacent in your day to day routine and the adoption subject never comes up until one day.....wham it does. It is like you almost forgot she was adopted as you fumble through life. Then it hits you! I am supposed to answer these questions and do a good job answering them. You spend so much time and effort into helping her learn to talk that you forget about all the adoption and birth family stuff that is going to come up when she can talk until it smacks you in the forehead. I hope I did a good job explaining things to her. I have definitely decided that I NEED to put an adoption video together for her so she can watch her own story. I have procrastinated about doing that.
I promise that I will try not to let 2 months go by without a post. I can't believe it has been two months. I will post about Christmas and all our goings on since then, soon. Until then,
GONG XI FA CAI